Independence?

This morning I walked to the bakery and fruit market alone. This isn't a big deal, they are just a few blocks away and I can just point to the things I need, I don't need to be able to speak. But I really enjoyed it! This wasn't my first time to do this alone, I've gone several times, but this morning I really enjoyed the feeling of freedom and independence of doing what I needed to do all by myself. I didn't need anyone to drive me or escort me, I didn't need anyone along to translate for me, I didn't have to rely on anyone else to show me the way. Like most people my age, I am used to being independent and self sufficient. Well, now, that is all out the window. I can't even go get my hair cut without help!
But I have been learning over these last several months, that I am not independent and self sufficient. No matter how much I earn, learn, and accomplish, for the important things in life, I need help, I need other people, and most of all, I need Jesus!
Greg and I could not have made it to this place and this work on our own. We needed God to provide the vision and the means to accomplish it. He used his people, his church to help us along every step of the way, from arranging travel plans to raising support. Now that we are here, we need his people to help us accomplish many of our daily tasks and we definitely need him to help us with our work. We rely on the Holy Spirit to gives us word to speak (1 Cor. 2:13) to our readers as we share with them about Jesus.
In Mark 10:15 Jesus says that anyone who doesn't receive the Kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it. So, like a child, I am to be totally dependent on my Father for everything. And I can rely on Him to provide all I need without worry. This isn't easy. I'm a grown-up adult and the world says I should be taking care of myself. But I am slowing learning that totally depending on God to provide is a blessed way to live and it is life to the fullest! I may enjoy an outing alone to the bakery, but I don't want to go back to an "independent, self sufficient" life, because, "my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus." (Ph. 4:29)